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I just realized that the time between my first spinal i njection and my second injection will be nearly a month. Ouch! I am supposed to undergo a series of 4 injections at two weeks apart, but the specialist -- who has an incredible reputation -- was booked up through mid-July. I'm wondering how this will affect the outcome of this procedure. The first 4 days after the injection were sheer hell. I ached so bad 24/7 that by the 4th day I was fighting off tears. I was also up to 3 Happy Pills (percocet) per day. A few days after that really bay, my back started to calm down to the regular level of daily pain. By 10 days after the injection, my back was actually feeling pretty good! I was down to 1/2 HP per day! (RELEIF! I don't want to get addicted to the damn things!). Now, I'm back up to my regular pain levels and I still have 2 weeks until my 2nd injection. For added fun, I'm supposed to be doing physical therapy again, but due to the insurance company's predilection for 'adjusting' our accaount in their favor, I now have a balance due at the therapy hut and must wait until next paycheck goes through before I can consider resuming therapy. It doesn't help that I am consumed with fatigue. My bones feel too fatigued to move: heavy and aching. My brain is in overdrive while my body slumps and begs not to move. The HPs help quite a bit; if I can't feel the ache then I'm better able to get up and do my daily work of laundry and dishes and shopping and cooking and playing with the babies and completing project requets and checking my mail and.... I'd be tired even without the back issues!

My mom's birthday is Sunday. I was hoping to complete an embroidery project as a gift, but I overestimated my ability to complete it. Sadness, as I have no idea what to possibly give my mother. I might have to suck up and go for a cheesy bouquet of flowers. She'd love flowers, but I think she'd enjoy them more as an accompanyment to a 'real' present. I'm flummoxed as to a gift and I feel terribly guilty for it.

I'm still trying to finish composing a long letter to my dear friend, Chris. I haven't written to her in months and I'm sure she thinks I have forgotten her; I think of her every day. I mentally compose snippets of letters to her on a nearlt daily basis. Getting to a quiet space where I can write is wholly different matter! The children are asleep at the moment and here I am updating my stupid little blog instead of writing to her! Believe me, these quiet moments come along very seldom. I have several more letters to write, as well. My friend David is halfway through his hike and is expected to stop at his next checkpoint on Saturday. I have a letter (and cookies!) to send to him and I just realized that I will not be able to get the package there in time for him to get it. This is my life.

Now on to letter-writing....!